At the end of the day, I can only help myself, I only have myself
I can get through this in my own. I’ll be fine.
Sometimes I wish that I had someone, like a partner. But I know that I’m not ready for it yet, but I can’t help with yearn and crave for the intimacy
You just woke up on day and decided that that I wasn’t worth fighting for anymore. That you suddenly forgot that you made plans for us in the future.
You broke me, and made me realise that I shouldn’t wait for anyone- if the time is right, it’ll happen. I shouldn’t have been waiting for you, I was naive that you and I were both in the same page, clearly you were on a different book.
I’m an idiot to think there’s actually still hope between us
I need to start facing reality
It’s those memories of you fighting for us that hits me the most, why did you give up?
I under estimated the time to get over you
I want to be one of those pretty girls, so you can see what you’re missing.
I want to hang out with a bad group and have fun, so you can see how much fun I’m having without you.
I want you to know what it’s like losing me.
I want you to regret letting me go and giving up on us.
I want you to see me in every girl you see.
I want you to know how much you hurt me.
but the truth is, I still care-
I laugh louder when you’re close so you can hear that I’m happy with you
I’m not competing anymore, I’m just simply better than her
I didn’t give up on you, you gave up on me – so why am I punishing myself for the fact that you gave up? And that somewhere along the way you lost sight of us?
Why am beating myself up over the fact that you gave up? And not living my life to the fullest. You were honestly one of the greatest thing that happened to me in 2018, and I’m thankful for that, I believe that what you said you real, all of it, but now you’re with her, so I don’t know what to think about your words anymore.
I’m sorry I can’t be your best friend, I’m sorry I can’t act normal toward you anymore. We have to go different pathways now. Maybe one day we’ll cross again, maybe we won’t, but I trust life, and what I’m experiencing is crucial to my growth, it’s what I’m lacking -self love, confidence, etc. Hence, this is how I’ll grow, and I will make it out on top.
My happiness can only men made with my own hands! My happiness doesn’t depend on anyone but me